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Wednesday, April 13, 2011

He who will always be in my memories and inside my heart...

As the clock ticked 2.35 p.m, my friend, my brother, my pal had breathe his last breath.

Muhammad Irsyad b. Hamin had died due to Germ Cell Tumor that he has. The cancer had spread from his lung to his heart and while he was receiving his Chemo treatment, he collapsed. The doctors had to operate him to keep him breathing but his heart decided to rebel and stopped beating for 20 mins. Those 20 mins destroyed many of his organs and ultimately caused his body to reject any medicine given to him.

Last night his brother had already informed us that he was in critical condition. He told me to get ready for the worst. And I was praying that it wouldn't be the worst.

Today, amongst more than 30 friends who loved him I was one of the two last friend who saw him alive. I was the one of the last one to stand beside him wanting to say everything but didn't say anything. I was beside his deathbed when his heart rate plummeted from 70 to 20 to 0. I was beside him when the doctor proclaimed that he was no more~

Is it a blessing that he went so easily? or
Is it a torture that he left so early?

I didn't get the chance to say I'm sorry properly,
I didn't get the chance to tell him how I am thankful to have had known him.
I didn't get the chance to tell him how much I care, love and appreciate him.

He's more than just some kid I happen to know,
He's more than just an acquaintance I made along the way,
He's more than a just another friend.
He's the one and only Irsyad -
the one who will always be in my memories and inside my heart.

He knows that right?
I'm sure he does.

From Him we came, and to Him we return.
Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat oleh Allah S.W.T

Al Fatihah~

In loving memories~ Muhammad Irsyad b. Hamin

previous posts before his demise...


  1. sangat sedih bila tahu berita ini, i'm his chilhood freinds, sangat tak percaya..
    apa pun pastilah awak lebih sedih dari saya,
    walau saya suruh awak tabah, o what so ever, awak jugalah yang mampu cure hati awak seniri..tapi ingatlah, sekali kita sabar, Allah pasti beri ganjaran untuk mereka yang sabar dengan ketentuanNya..

  2. thanks haku... Tak tahulah saya lebih sedih atau tidak, tapi mmg susah nak percaya dia dah takde~.
    Takpelah, masa akan merubati segalanya, InsyaAllah.

  3. innaliliah... im sorry for your lost.

  4. tough...aku tatau apee lagi aku boleh ckp...what ever it is..Allah knows best...mari berdoa agar dia ditepatkan di kalangan hamba2 Allah yg beriman...Alfatihah...

  5. tiade satu hal pon yg kite tau ia akan terjadi cume dengan agakan je..tu pun belom tentu agakan itu tepat..b strong..

    :: Moto dan Empunye Moto Wat Hal ::

  6. Hey Nana,

    Am dropping by your blog cos I heard that you are going through some bad days.

    I hope you're doing much better now. It is sad that he had to leave so early in his life but God loves him more. I'm crying as I'm reading this post... I'm sorry.

    Stay strong babe. Keep a memory of him in your heart.

  7. Thanks guys. I appreciate the thoughts. A part of him will always be with me :)

  8. salam kak nana
    im his sis
    bole kan kalau nak copy ur story bout my bro



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