He who will always be in my memories and inside my heart...

As the clock ticked 2.35 p.m, my friend, my brother, my pal had breathe his last breath.

Muhammad Irsyad b. Hamin had died due to Germ Cell Tumor that he has. The cancer had spread from his lung to his heart and while he was receiving his Chemo treatment, he collapsed. The doctors had to operate him to keep him breathing but his heart decided to rebel and stopped beating for 20 mins. Those 20 mins destroyed many of his organs and ultimately caused his body to reject any medicine given to him.

Last night his brother had already informed us that he was in critical condition. He told me to get ready for the worst. And I was praying that it wouldn't be the worst.

Today, amongst more than 30 friends who loved him I was one of the two last friend who saw him alive. I was the one of the last one to stand beside him wanting to say everything but didn't say anything. I was beside his deathbed when his heart rate plummeted from 70 to 20 to 0. I was beside him when the doctor proclaimed that he was no more~

Is it a blessing that he went so easily? or

Is it a torture that he left so early?

I didn't get the chance to say I'm sorry properly,

I didn't get the chance to tell him how I am thankful to have had known him.

I didn't get the chance to tell him how much I care, love and appreciate him.

He's more than just some kid I happen to know,

He's more than just an acquaintance I made along the way,

He's more than a just another friend.

He's the one and only Irsyad -
the one who will always be in my memories and inside my heart.

He knows that right?

I'm sure he does.

Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun...

From Him we came, and to Him we return.

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat oleh Allah S.W.T

Al Fatihah~

In loving memories~ Muhammad Irsyad b. Hamin

previous posts before his demise...

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