|Near but far~ (display picture only)|
When I decided I would try and thread this water with you,
I promised myself a lot of things
I promised myself this time it would be different.
I promised that this time I would be different.
I promised that I would wait patiently,
that I wouldn't complain as much
that I would try and be understanding.
But really, my patience are slowly and steadily thinning out
I find myself unable to answer for you
I find myself doubting and wondering
And I hate it.
I hate it SOOOO very much.
You are nowhere to be found
I heard nothing from you.
Not even a text, let alone a call.
U didn't even wish me birthday.
I don't even know where in the world you are.
I don't know if you are well or sick
I don't know if things are going well for you or not
I don't know if you get enough rest
or just frantically working your life out of yourself.
But what eats at me is that
I don't know where I am in your heart.
Yes you said u you loved me
and that your feelings for me would never change.
But dear, don't you know,
Plain words without actions affirming it means NOTHING.
because the truth is
You don't know me
and the sad truth is
I don't know you either
So how am I to believe what you said is true?
So how am I to know if you meant anything that you said?
Can a person truly and really love someone they don't know?
I didn't want to complain
Coz I know you're busy with work.
I can understand that, really I do.
But seriously? not even a text?
I thought the last time u said you were sorry?
And that you will try and remember that.
I wonder did you not try hard enough?
Or did you not even bother to try?
How many of you had ever felt this way?
I believe, it doesn't matter if you're a girl or a guy, you might have once encountered with this situation - where you are supposed to be together with someone, and you tell others that you are together, but yet you find yourselves feeling so alone. You know little to nothing about what is happening in your partner's life.
So how would you guys handle this situation?
Or maybe, you are the one being accused of doing such a thing. So what is your excuse?
Just a lovey, dovey Tuesday with the Brat,