Lets just say, you ever find this person, NEVER let them go. Despite all the things they hate about you, if a person still stay with you even though you do not bring them any apparent benefit then keep in mind that this person is someone worth for you to keep. Treat them well as they are the person who will always accept you as you are. They might be a friend, a lover, a family member. No matter who they are, always remember to appreciate them. Because they are the one who will always be there for you through thick and thin.
But also be reminded, if you don't appreciate them, or keep mistreating them and take them for granted, eventually they will leave. And once they leave, you'll lose them forever because chances are, they'll never come back.
Even if they are still somewhere you can reach, and somewhere you can see, you will feel it yourself, that they are just not there any more. The place where they usually stand will be a big void that feels so empty. The smile that is always warmly beaming at you will turn to a smile that is so polite, that it felt cold.
Because we hurt the people we love the most and be hurt by the people we love the most. They had loved and accepted you the most as you are, so when they leave, it meant they had been hurt beyond any recovery. And because of that, no matter what you do after that, your relationship with that person will never return to the way it was. And so, you had lost them forever.
How to do it? Simple. Just think, if they die tomorrow (touch wood, Nauzubillah) what would be the things you wish you had told them, and what are the things that you would wish to do for them or with them. Then, SAY IT, DO IT. Because you won't get another chance. If you wait for tomorrow, and tomorrow never come, you will regret it. I promise you, you will. I know, I had been there.
For my friends, family and all those people who had always stand by me through the best days and the worst days of my life, I thank you very much for being there. For those who had received the very worst from me and yet still loved me and accepted me for who I am, I'm sorry for those times I might have hurt you. And know that, from the bottom of my heart, I love you. And will always do. Thank You, for being you. :)
A small reminder to everyone from the Brat,