Miss ME yet?

Miss me YET?

Yes, I was missing from the web-world for 8 whole days. I just could not access the internet from where I was in the past 8 days. Even if I did have access to the internet, I doubt that I would have had any time to update my humble blog. Yes, the brat was sent to a camp.

I wish it was something or ANYTHING like CAMP ROCK

But there were no or very little singing that we did.

I wish it was a SUMMER CAMP

where it is all sunshine and fun. Of course, since Malaysia don't exactly have "summers" so there are no such thing as summer camps.

So what camp was it?

It was the very-exhausting-8-long-days-mind-AND-body-challenging Leadership Camp. With half-spartan conductors and tight schedule and lots and LOTS and LOTS of running and walking. (Oh yes, I pulled a leg cramp thanks to that) 

After the first torture I put my body through the first 4 days, The next 4 days I tortured my mind to pay attention to the endless talks and forums while trying my best to participate and stay awake when I have barely 2 hours of sleep each day. (Oh yes, I failed miserably at trying to stay awake)

HOWEVER

I had the most awesome time EVER! It was always great to get to know new people and trying out new things to do and pushing oneself to their limit.In case you haven't noticed, I am the kind of person who seek for things to do to the point that I would exhaust myself - and then complain about it.

Bratty ain't it? Just though I'd drop a simple note to tell you where I've gone. so, did you miss me?

Still exhausted brat,

Studying for Passion or Subjection?

Before I continue, let me enlighten you guys what I mean by Passion and Subjection.

Passion here, without any doubt means u are doing it because you love it. because you enjoy it. because you are enthusiastic about it.

Subjection here would mean because you have to (like your parents ask you to) or because it's your responsibility to do so.

Why I use the word "subjection" instead of just plain "responsibility" u might ask.

1st, because it is never just because of "responsibility" it is more than that. You are subjected to it. You just HAVE and MUST do it - for whatever reasons you can come out with. Responsibility is just one of it.

And 2nd, because it rhymes with "Passion" ^__^

Back to the subject. I started to think about this today when my brother announces his (very) bad result (again) to my father. So, we kind of have a little discussion on the matter and a word my dad say just stuck on my mind and I decided to make a blog post out of it. He said,

"it's not just about weather you are passionate about it or not, it is your responsibility to study"

I understand where that came from. Being a Father who needs to work 18 hours a day just to make ends meet, seeing his only son not being able to perform just breaks his heart. He do not wish the same life for his son. And I get that. (Everytime I think about how hard my dad works for us, I'd get so emotional it makes me cry a tear)

But Daddy dearest, please understand. He's just not cut out for the course he is currently taking. I've said that from the start. (he's now going on to his fourth semester). Judging from his character, I am positive he could not perform in his current course. I am not trying to undermine my brother, because I know that he had tried his best. I know what it feels like to be there. And I'm saying this as someone who experienced it first.

I was once like my brother. I took a course that I was not cut out for and I failed miserably to perform. I tried my hardest to study. In fact I studied much harder back then than I do now, but each time my results came out, I'd be disappointed. Every time seeing the result that could hardly reach a 3.0  breaks my heart so much that I'd cry. It even make me feel reluctant to continue my studies. So, I know EXACTLY how my brother is feeling right now.

But when I solidify my stand, and took a leap and changed my course, I was able to perform much much waaaaay much better than I did before. Not only was I able to get better results, I was also enjoying my studies and my student life. The CHANGE I decided to take was exactly the thing I needed. Knowing myself and where my PASSION lies is the first step I had taken.

If you have read my previous post SMART ke? you might think what I am saying today contradicts with what I was saying back then. But to me it isn't. It's one thing to fail in fulfilling your responsibility because you are barely trying, it is another when you have tried your best yet still failing.

I agree that studying is a responsibility. What you need to do and must do. But without passion, even if you succeeded in fulfilling that responsibility, it would be a hollow victory. In the end, you'd suddenly find yourself in a whole different path than you expect (and were expected) to be.

Without passion that responsibility is a subjection - you'd feel like a slave doing it. But when you have passion, fulfilling that responsibility is something you would look forward too. Even if it is a difficult path, because you are passionate about it, you'd go through it, and even if you fall into a heap of garbage, you'll come out smiling and smelling like roses. The success you achieved, is one you would be proud of.

Just like how I feel today. I smile each time I look at my results slip. If I hadn't taken that leap years ago, I would probably still frowning at my result. I would NEVER had a chance to feel proud with all the hard work I've poured into my studies. I guess it is because I am studying for my Passion and NOT just Subjection. I have a responsibility to study, to perform to be an example to my siblings as well as making my parents proud. But I'm doing it with a smile instead of frowns feeling like a warrior instead of a slave.

I wish my brother and everyone could feel the joy I have in studying. And feel proud of what you had worked so hard for like  I do now. Learning should not be something you would take as a burden, it should be a gift you'd be happy to receive.

Just a little thought from the Brat,

p/s: none of the picture belongs to me. I Google it up.

Musical Melancholy~

All I hear is you

All I want to hear is you

But what I hear is all but you

Apparently, I am suffering from "Combined Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)"

I was helping my friend translating a questionnaire set of various disorders (including drug and alcohol abuse as well as bullying and psychotic). As I was translating the set, I had subconsciously been  answering the questions as I go. Of course, none of it fit the brat's profile, until, the brat reached this one. I answered "Yes" to most of the questions or symptoms, and according to the manual inserted along with it, apparently the Brat is suffering from  "Combined Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder" - and I don't even know about it until now.

ADHD is one of the most common childhood disorders and can continue through adolescence and adulthood. Symptoms include difficulty staying focused and paying attention, difficulty controlling behavior, and hyperactivity (over-activity). A person with ADHD act without thinking, are hyperactive, and have trouble focusing. They may understand what's expected of them but have trouble following through because they can't sit still, pay attention, or attend to details.

Now, I'm gonna share with u the questions that I had answered.

Before that, a word of WARNING, please read until the end of the post, so that you won't be running to your doctor or parents because you thought you have ADHD. The Brat is not and will not be responsible for any mis-diagnose on your part.

A


Have you often not paid enough attention to details?
Well, actually most of the time.
Made careless mistakes in school?
Like counting 2x3 as 5? all the time...
Have you often had trouble keeping your attention focused when playing or doing schoolwork?
oh yes, definitely. I'll study for 5 and play for 30.
Have you often been told that you do not listen when others talk directly to you?
All the time
Have you often had trouble following through with what you were told to do (Like not following through on schoolwork or chores)?
Definitely (especially chores) my mom had a kick in lecturing me everytime
Did this happen even though you understood what you were supposed to do?
Absolutely
Did this happen even though you weren't trying to be difficult?
Yes and sometimes No. Hey, I'm a brat, I am EXPECTED to be difficult.
Have you often had a hard time getting organized?
Just take a look at my room and you'll stop asking that question. YES
Have you often tried to avoid things that make you concentrate or think hard (like schoolwork)?
Ugh~ Thinking make my head hurts
Do you hate or dislike things that make you concentrate or think hard?
Didn't I just said my head hurts?
Have you often lost or forgotten things you needed?
All the time
Like homework assignments, pencils, or toys?
Yes, yes, yes, and many more. Who knows where I put my car keys, or my guitar pick, or my umbrella....
Do you often get distracted easily by little things (Like sounds or things outside the room)?
Actually it's the other way round. so NO.
Do you often forget to do things you need to do every day (Like forget to comb your hair or brush your teeth)?
I forgot to feed my cat, I forgot to take my diet pills, does that count?

SUMMARY: ARE 6 OR MORE ANSWERS CODED YES? -YES

B
In the past six months:
Did you often fidget with your hands or feet?
No. But They are always moving (I'm always doing something)
Or did you squirm in your seat?
Not that I noticed.
Did you often get out of your seat in class when you were not supposed to?
Yes, to the point my teacher calls my father in because "I move around too much in class" (this was when I was in primary school)
Have you often run around or climbed on things when you weren't supposed to?
And thus my a bit distorted ankle. I climb and I jump and my mom always say I when I was a baby I never stopped running once I learned how to walk.
Did you run around or climb on things even though you didn't mean to?
Nope. I climb because I want to
Have you often had a hard time playing quietly?
What is playing quietly? You've got to make some noise, then it's called playing..
Were you always "on the go"?
Oh Yes.
Have you often talked too much?
Definitely
Have you often blurted out answers before the person or teacher has finished the question?
Yes
Have you often had trouble waiting your turn?
Can you wait patiently in a traffic jam? Then you must be a saint.
Have you often interrupted other people, Like butting in when other people are talking or busy or when they are on the phone?
Yes. What I want to say is important. So ppl should listen :p

SUMMARY: ARE 6 OR MORE ANSWERS CODED YES? - Yes

EVALUATION
IS SUMMARY A AND SUMMARY B CODED YES?
- If yes, COMBINED Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder

IS SUMMARY A CODED YES AND SUMMARY B CODED NO?
- If yes, INATTENTIVE Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder

IS SUMMARY A CODED NO AND SUMMARY B CODED YES?
- If yes, HYPERACTIVE/IMPULSIVE Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder


But of course, that is only true IF these symptoms had shown themselves BEFORE I was 7 and if it had in any way affected me in classroom, playground, home, community and social life.

Truth is, I am TOO OLD to be diagnosed as ADHD. And, even if I'm not, I don't remember it affected me in any of the above areas. TOO BAD. If not, I could attribute my little-than-less-successful life to it. Plus I could always get out of doing assignments because of it! LOLS.

NAh- I'm glad I am nOrmal (well, as normal as I can be).

Just so I have the facts right, There are also ADHD among adults (which is quite a different story than mine). But if I explain it here, it would take too long. So you can just check it out from this website.

Note this. I am not posting this up to make fun or ridicule those who have ADHD. If anything, I scorn those who make fun of people who just can't help themselves being the way they are. We need to care for these people and help them in any way we could. Children who have ADHD may need extra attention and work, but instead of getting angry and impatient we should be supporting them and help them to learn and cope with their situation.

These are not only hard on the child, but also the their parents. What kind of a human being we would be if we disregard those who need help because we find it a bit more hassle? Oh yes, you've guessed it a SELFISH person. And what does it says for us as a  person that forces more burden on such frail shoulders? I would say, INHUMAN.

I believe, in each of us, we have a bit of this ADHD symptoms. In the end it depends on us how we wish to cope with it. Would we surrender? Or would we fight?

Just the Brat sharing her Thoughts,

p/s: none of the pictures above belongs to me. I thank Google for it.
     

Salam Maal Hijrah

Mungkin agak terlewat, tapi Brat nak ucapkan

Kepada semua umat Islam di SELURUH DUNIA 

To those who are wondering what "Maal Hijrah" is, it is the 

"NEW YEAR" for Muslims according to our calendar.

Yes, it's a mark of new transformation, new resolutions, a metamorphosis if you wish to.
Just like any other new year...

Semoga hari esok kita lebih baik dan gemilang dari semalam dan hari ini. 

Ikhlas dan Sincerely dari si Brat,

All WORK and NO Play makes NANA a very UNHAPPY BRAT!!

*Sigh. When I applied for a part-time job with my uni I didn't really know what I signed up for...

I thought it would be all play and no work.

source

or at lest, it would be like taking a walk at the park..

Beautiful picture by Proggie

But NO. nothing like that happened. Now the Brat is sitting on her bed with a back pain. 

Ah yes, this short post is done SOLELY to reaffirm how LAZY the Brat really is...

Source

So what did I do that cause me to have a big *sigh?

let's see, 

I had to extract a few hundreds of log books from these piles of boxes.

and these are only half of them

and then, from the hundreds of log books, 

I had to match them by dates to these 1000++ list.

see? 1804!!!

 IOW, I had to go through all those books page, by page by page, by PAGE..

So, no wonder by the end of the LOOONG 8 hours, I ended up like this.

Ahhh.. what I'd give for a holiday right now...

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Oh WAIT!

I AM going for one tomorrow!!
It's play time!!

Yippee! 

The Brat,